Archive January 2009

Construction Projects and General Maintenance. 

I’m not one to make new years resolutions. They never last, life gets in the way, and any specific goals I ever set at the beginning of the year are usually long forgotten by Easter. 

But this year, I thought I would pick a few areas of my life that I feel need a little maintenance, and focus on them in a general way. No specific goals, just areas that I would like to feel better about, or projects that I’d like to be further along with at this time next year.

So, it is my hope that 2009 will be the year that I:


Start taking better care of my health.

I am at least 70 pounds over weight  and I feel every ounce of it. My knees and ankles scream at me just about every morning, but even more so the morning after I’ve worked a 12 hour shift at work. I can’t continue to do my job and carry around all this extra weight. I gained a lot of weight when I went to nursing school, and then more when I quit smoking. Nursing school was 4 years ago, and I quit smoking 2 years ago. It’s time to focus on the extra blubber.  


Reconnect with my spiritual side.

When I was younger, I was a much more spiritual / religious person than I am now. Over the last few years, I’ve neglected that part of myself, and I really do miss it. I feel sometimes like there is something I need to be thinking about, something bigger than myself. Over the next few months, it’s my intention to explore my spirituality again, and hopefully become more grounded than I have been lately.


Complete my R.N. Studies.

I have the books, I have the materials, and I’ve been paying the bill for the last 4 months. I just need to sit my ass down every day and study! For some reason, I just can’t get past the first two chapters of Introductory Sociology…..zzzzzzzzzzz….See? just typing the title made me sleepy!


Read More for Pleasure.

This may be wishful thinking, what with all of the stuff I need to read for the R.N. classes, but I have a stack of books I bought last year that I just never got around to reading.  First up: The Watchmen.  Steve has been after me to read it, and I’d like to finish it before the movie comes out in March.


Reconnect with Friends I’ve lost touch with, and open myself to new friendships.

I’ve lost touch with so many good friends over my lifetime. I have theories as to why, and I’ll write about that later. But this is the year that I will try to get back in touch with people that matter to me. And it’s also the year that I will be looking to make some new friends.  

Jan 13, 2009 3:53 PM

Time to Confess....  

OK, I admit it, I suck at blogging. I’m terrible when it comes to updating this thing and I’ve been trying to figure out why.

I have ideas for postings all the time, but just can’t seem to sit down and make myself write.  I always find some reason why I don’t have time, or find something else to do once I sit down at my desk. Before I know it, I’ve forgotten all about writing this blog, and have down loaded a months salary worth of new music on iTunes.

Maybe it’s that I just don’t feel that my ideas or thoughts are interesting to anyone.  I mean, really, who would be interested in the rantings of bear in Columbus Ohio?

Or I worry that my writing isn’t as good as some of the other blogs I read on a regular basis. I’m not as good at putting my thoughts into words as maybe JP, or Sean, or Moby or Homer or….well, you get the idea. I guess maybe I’m just too self critical for my own good.

Then again, maybe I’m just afraid  that I’ll make myself look foolish or silly by writing what I really want to write.  This is actually a recurring theme in my life. I’ve always had a fear of  not being in control and appearing foolish or silly in front of people I don’t know.

But you know, the more I think about it, the more I realize that none of this matters. I enjoy writing, and I shouldn’t stop myself from putting my thought out here just because I don’t feel that I measure up to other people. People will find what I write interesting, or they won’t. And as far as looking foolish, the chances are slim and none that I will ever meet the people that read this in person, so what the hell?

So, with that in mind, look for more frequent postings from me this year. I hope people reading what I write will find it interesting, and maybe even leave a comment or two if the spirit moves them to do so.

If I bore you, you can always move on  to the next blog in your blog roll and come back later.

Happy New Year all! Here’s to a great 2009!

Jan 10, 2009 9:27 PM